An Apology to a Dead Man

I'm sorry Walter.
I tried.
But I didn't know the things I was doing wrong, as I did them.

I loved him.
And I thought that was enough.

I didn't know the damage I was doing.

I hope that she is better for him than I was.
I didn't mean to destroy the person that he was.
I didn't know that I didn't know how to love.
And I'm sorry that he died through my learning.

I was oblivious to the changes.
And I didn't know how to ask about the pain.
I tried to do things to pull him out,
to make him happy,
to give him hope.
I didn't know.

And all I can say now is
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
Please forgive me.
I tried.

He really was beautiful once.